preggo-brain!

I remember when I was pregnant the last time I was ditzy... this time I feel as though I would lose my head if it wasn't attached!  I've forgotten to do numerous things that are my responsibility and that is so not me or my personality.  I try very hard to be on top of things and not be the kind of person that forgets things.  Feeling very frustrated with myself over this!!!  I apologize if I've affected you with my scatterbrained-ness. 

Its been an interesting/good/hard week.  Starting with the good, Baby is supposedly a girl.  Not sure I believe it, but I'm happy either way!  I figure, if a baby boy comes out instead of a girl I get to go shopping!  (nothing wrong with that!!)  :-D

Baby has been moving around and kicking so much, its so amazing to feel that life inside me.  I can't describe how every time I feel her it makes me happy and reminds me of the precious bundle I have the privilege to care for!

My wonderful midwife has been researching and talking to doctors about what happened with the last pregnancy so we can come up with a plan to watch my body and if it happens again catch it earlier than the last time.  Part of this plan was establishing a baseline 24hr urine sample.  I had thought about doing this at some point, so was not surprised to see her walk in with the lovely orange pee jug and was slightly disappointed there was no "hat" (the thing you pee in then pour contents into the jug). 

It did throw me into a bit of a tailspin to see it, and remember how things went down the last time I completed that test.  The fear, the "what ifs" and memories hit me.  I started to cry.  I received numerous hugs and reassurances from my midwife and her assistants and my hubs and precious daughter.  This is why I chose midwifery care, because they truly CARE!!

Anyway, completed the test.  The worst part was not wanting to go downstairs in the middle of the night to pee into a jug.  (It has to be refrigerated and that is downstairs.)  Needless to say, I went to bed late and got up early and had to pee SO bad!!!  Lol, in retrospect if there is a next time maybe I'll sleep on the couch!


Well, its been a very long day, and I'm leading tomorrow's LLL meeting.  Praying it goes well and that I can keep the conversation flowing smoothly.  Good night all!